This to shall pass……

…..It might pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass.

 

I found this saying (and the picture) on one of my many trips to Pintrest and it has become my new mantra.

 

 

Today is day 3 of my lesser dose of antidepressants and so far I have some ups downs.  The downs hit in quite hard.  I feel so tired, my skin is so sensitive to pain, my body feels so heavy and moving feels like I’m stuck on treacle and concentration goes out the window.  When it gets like that I do feel like I’ve taken a giant step back, I haven’t felt this bad in so long.  I’m not letting it get me down though, I knew that coming off these meds would be a challenge and I am looking forward to be done and dusted with taking them.

 

My new mantra has really helped me cope I think.  When people say that these things are only temporary it feels like they’re really telling you to get over it and be ok now.  But saying it this way feels like I’ve given myself permission to feel rubbish now but know that it won’t be rubbish forever.  It also helps that I’m not feeling rubbish all day and when it all calms down I feel great.  When I woke up this morning I felt dreadful, just getting out of bed was a physical struggle.  I don’t start work till 1pm on a Wednesday and had plenty of time to walk in, the start of my walk was difficult but I soon got over that and it felt good to be out.  By the time I got to work I was fine, not tired and achy but awake and rearing to go.

 

This post was started on Wednesday 15.  As you can see I have gotten better about writing posts, but I need to work on actually uploading them.

 

I can confirm that the first 7 days of lowering my dose went ok.  I seemed to be fine for either the morning or the afternoon and rubbish for the other bit of the day, luckily I was ok for work.  The next 7 day I had a cold that was going round but otherwise I was fine.  For the next 14 days I only need to take a tablet every other day, so fingers crossed this change will be ok.

 

I hope you are all well.  Thank you for reading x